Missing Your Eating Disorder

You never think you’re going to miss your eating disorder. You start recovering and you start not hating yourself, and you look back and you can see just how trapped and miserable you were. Why would you ever miss being in that place? For me, my problems got really bad, or I relapsed, when I…

Recovery Is

Recovery is debating whether or not to have pizza or chocolate or pasta or any other of your ‘fear’ foods or ‘bad’ foods. It’s feeling guilty for ‘treating’ yourself or ‘eating badly’ when you decide to have it. It’s knowing that that’s the eating disorder talking. It’s learning that every time you choose the food…

Recovery in a Diet Culture

We live in a diet culture. We can see it in the way that weight loss is advertised as a goal, as something we should all be striving for. We can see it in the way that plus size or curvy models are a rarity, praised for not fitting the mould, all while often times…

Beginning Recovery

A popular portrayal of eating disorder recovery is that a person with an ED has an epiphany or a life changing moment or just decides one day to not have an eating disorder any more and, just like that, they’re on the road to recovery. They might hit a few road blocks, but for the…

Intro to Eating Disorder Awareness Week

Eating Disorder Awareness Week (EDAW) is often misunderstood. Because obviously, we all know that eating disorders are a thing – we don’t exactly need to be made aware of their existence and the fact that they’re pretty shit. But there are a lot of myths and misconceptions about eating disorders, and EDAW is maybe one…

On Asking for Help

Despite the fact that we talk more and more about mental health as a society these days, it’s nearly always in general terms. It’s rarely ‘I have dealt with x’, or ‘I need help with y’. As someone who’s dealt with mental health issues for far too many years, I was pretty used to keeping…