Changing what Recovery Means 

When I was younger, I had this recurring anxiety dream/daydream about walking along a path and suddenly holes would open up in the ground and I would try to avoid falling in. I fell into the holes a lot, and the more I would fall into the holes, the more I was afraid of falling…

Missing Your Eating Disorder

You never think you’re going to miss your eating disorder. You start recovering and you start not hating yourself, and you look back and you can see just how trapped and miserable you were. Why would you ever miss being in that place? For me, my problems got really bad, or I relapsed, when I…

Recovery Is

Recovery is debating whether or not to have pizza or chocolate or pasta or any other of your ‘fear’ foods or ‘bad’ foods. It’s feeling guilty for ‘treating’ yourself or ‘eating badly’ when you decide to have it. It’s knowing that that’s the eating disorder talking. It’s learning that every time you choose the food…

Recovery in a Diet Culture

We live in a diet culture. We can see it in the way that weight loss is advertised as a goal, as something we should all be striving for. We can see it in the way that plus size or curvy models are a rarity, praised for not fitting the mould, all while often times…

Beginning Recovery

A popular portrayal of eating disorder recovery is that a person with an ED has an epiphany or a life changing moment or just decides one day to not have an eating disorder any more and, just like that, they’re on the road to recovery. They might hit a few road blocks, but for the…

Intro to Eating Disorder Awareness Week

Eating Disorder Awareness Week (EDAW) is often misunderstood. Because obviously, we all know that eating disorders are a thing – we don’t exactly need to be made aware of their existence and the fact that they’re pretty shit. But there are a lot of myths and misconceptions about eating disorders, and EDAW is maybe one…

On Body Negativity

 (TW Eating Disorders) I was 15 when I first felt that there was something ‘wrong’ with my body. I was visiting my dad in Cork and he made fat jokes. Pretty much constantly. He then apparently had a go at my mum about my weight. I was 5’8 and a size 12 – perfectly healthy…

Not all Guys are like that

At 15 a boy told me that if I really liked him, I’d fool around with him. Afterwards, he said he only saw me as a friend, but we should still have sex sometime. But not all guys are like that. My first time going to a nightclub, I was pushed into dancing with a…

On the Limits of ‘Yes means Yes’ Campaigns

Talking about consent, as well as rape culture, is incredibly important. According to the Dublin Rape Crisis Centre, 1 in 5 women and 1 in 10 men will experience sexual assault in their lifetime. There have been many attempts to raise awareness and attempts to prevent sexual assault and rape. Sex positive feminism’s ‘Yes means…